Little bites of joy

When we open our eyes and stop living on autopilot, we are able to find joy in every little moment in no effort.

What are little bites of joy? The moments when you feel alive the most and when you are grateful and aware of all the joy you can get from it. In every moment, here and now, there is great potential for joy, go for it! Continue reading “Little bites of joy”

I allow myself to be

My personal chant on honoring myself and allowing, but not avoiding, loving, but not fearing.

I allow myself to feel awkward.

I allow myself to eat meat.

I allow myself to have a white line on my back from suntanning in the swimming suit

and, unless I feel like it, I don’t have to be fit

anymore.

I allow myself to cancel a meeting,

to start a war, but only inside,

and then cry, cry for days.

I allow myself to sleep in.

I allow myself to scream when I am in pain.

I even allow myself to faint (just to experience something new),

and eat ice cream whenever I feel like it.

I allow myself to be rude,

to change my mood when it feels right,

to wake up anxious, to wake up happy,

to smile at strangers,

to say things people do not approve of.

I allow myself to be naked,

I allow myself to tell you I love you,

to be real, and throw away all the make up.

I allow myself to stand in the balcony and breathe without smoking.

I allow myself to be who I want to be

and, most importantly, to be who I am

I allow myself to sneak in the fridge in the middle of the night

and eat pickled zucchinis.

I can now do everything that feels right.

I do not allow myself to be greedy and needy,

I do not allow myself to be fake

anymore.

I am here, I am now

I am always, I am never.

And everything that is growth and light and love

I allow myself.

Write to heal

Since a very young age, I have kept journals. I put photos of boys I liked inside and wrote down important events of my middle school life. I even wrote poetry, and I still like some poems from those days. Now, when I am almost 30 years old, I start to truly appreciate journaling and writing and discover all of its benefits. Continue reading “Write to heal”

Being free

What can be better than freedom?

To wear a dress you like

The sun melting you into a field of pink flowers

To wear a confident smile

and laugh and swing all day long, like a child

To spin yourself into losing your sense of direction

To kiss the man you like

To get lost in time

surrendering to your thoughts and being completely in charge

Enjoying each wave, each emotion, each beam of light.

What can be more than freedom?

When I am in love

When I am in love I fly to every place I need to go to, I bathe in the light of the ordinary and nothing scares me.

When I am in love, fresh laundry smells like cornflower fields and my thoughts get lost in a hidden temple in the Armenian mountains where I could sit next to you for hours enjoying sunshine without breaking silence between us. Continue reading “When I am in love”